Post by pursuer on Mar 22, 2008 17:32:42 GMT -5
I feel so very ashamed. I am in need of guidance. I am 25 years old, so I am an adult now, but I am really in need of an older woman's guidance.
The Lord has impressed on my heart the unwavering commitment to Him in staying at home, teaching my own children, etc. I see it so clearly and vividly in Scripture that it's a very open, passionate subject for me.
I need guidance because somewhere between, "Whatever decision you make, just do it for God, regardless of what it is, and He'll be happy" and recognizing that He does have certain rules and plans for each family, that, though unique, should be followed by all Christian households, I have lost my heart.
I know that sounds funny, but I have. I guess the best way to describe it is that where once I had compassion and zeal for other Christians, I now have annoyance and bitterness that they listen to most of Scripture with deaf ears.
I look back to three years ago and I know that I was in that exact same spot, and have no idea why I feel so angry towards Christians on this matter, but I do. I have been offering it up to the Lord, and I seem to be holding something back from Him. I just don't know what.
I have no anger towards secular people to this matter, oddly enough, as, in my thinking, "they don't think with a renewed mindset, one can't be upset with them for not understanding deeper issues when they are not understanding simpler ones." Just Christians.
And it makes my heart sick. In order to love the Lord, I am to love my brothers and sisters in Christ, all of them, not just the ones that view things as I do.
I don't really believe there are any definitive things I can do to love others, but rather, that I just... do it. But I guess I am wondering from any of you older women if there are any helpful ideas you may have for me. And please pray! Thank you so much, ladies.
The Lord has impressed on my heart the unwavering commitment to Him in staying at home, teaching my own children, etc. I see it so clearly and vividly in Scripture that it's a very open, passionate subject for me.
I need guidance because somewhere between, "Whatever decision you make, just do it for God, regardless of what it is, and He'll be happy" and recognizing that He does have certain rules and plans for each family, that, though unique, should be followed by all Christian households, I have lost my heart.
I know that sounds funny, but I have. I guess the best way to describe it is that where once I had compassion and zeal for other Christians, I now have annoyance and bitterness that they listen to most of Scripture with deaf ears.
I look back to three years ago and I know that I was in that exact same spot, and have no idea why I feel so angry towards Christians on this matter, but I do. I have been offering it up to the Lord, and I seem to be holding something back from Him. I just don't know what.
I have no anger towards secular people to this matter, oddly enough, as, in my thinking, "they don't think with a renewed mindset, one can't be upset with them for not understanding deeper issues when they are not understanding simpler ones." Just Christians.
And it makes my heart sick. In order to love the Lord, I am to love my brothers and sisters in Christ, all of them, not just the ones that view things as I do.
I don't really believe there are any definitive things I can do to love others, but rather, that I just... do it. But I guess I am wondering from any of you older women if there are any helpful ideas you may have for me. And please pray! Thank you so much, ladies.